Knowing death

i was fortunate (so to say), not to have witnessed anyone's death in my life... but, in recent times, i have witnessed two of my relatives' death... i have seen it more closely than others might see it... one of them died in an accident and i was there when his postmortem was being carried out while other died of heart attack and i was there when she was being cremated... and i met both of them, just one day before their death... they were so alive, so full of worldly feelings like tension, happiness, sorrow, joy, jealousy etc.... never would have they predicted their death... and so peaceful their face looked when dead, as if they were fast asleep... i was expecting DEATH to frighten me, it didn't... on the contrary, i liked it... if death can make you sooooo peaceful, i would love to fix up a date with my death as soon as possible :) just joking.... i want to live... live life to the fullest,,, i want to be happy and sad, want to make love to my lover and want to love my loved ones, i want to feel alive before i stop "feeling" and be eternally "peaceful".... but, i m not afraid of death... not at all... and now i love my life so much more :)